New headphones! :)

Now I get to further my hearing loss.

Denny Gernunz or something like that.

Victim: Ben Gernenz, (815) 293-0280, 330 Fremont Ave, Romeoville, IL 60446

Whoa... It's like a brother or something.

The next person that pisses me off is going to be very likely to walk away with bruises.

I'm tired as a mofo. Just 1 more week of hell, then I'm done.

Oh yeah, I've got an interview this coming Friday too.

ME!

Seriously.

Ok, so maybe I'm bi-polar...

Today, I was actually feeling a lot better. I don't know if was a sense of numbness or what, but I know that the depression that I've been fighting for the past 6 months wasn't really showing. That was until my sister informed me of something...

Sunday is graduation. Yes, I'll be graduating. I've worked really hard to get to this point. I expected that my whole family, the immediate family at least, would be there. I guess my expectations were set too high.

I've been "ranked" yet again. And yet again, the person giving me this rank didn't have the fucking balls to tell me. They sent a messenger.

Yes, I'm refering to my brother in law. He doesn't want to leave town for the weekend because he did last weekend to spend a couple hours with this family and to make use of my scanner. That was the initial reason. After that, I was informed that he doesn't want to have anythng to do with it because Mom is planning something for afterwards.

It really breaks me up to see that he is calling this an unimportant event, and that he'll go to my "real graduation" instead. Pardon me, but FUCK THE HELL OFF. Next time he expects me to show up at his place to help out with a project, I'll just say that I can't, because it isn't important. I am also upset that he is basically restraining my sister, who is damned near my twin, from coming to the ceremony. I really don't give a fuck if he doesn't want to spend time at the after-ceremony event Mom is planning, but this is an important day to me, and I would have really liked to see them there.

Since he doesn't want to go, fine. Don't go. I just hope he doesn't expect anything more out of me, seeing as how I've been rated as unimportant.

So "Soup Dick", his girlfriend, and I, just went bowling. When we left, everyone was in agreement that we were gonna go bowl.

On the way to the alley, his girlfriend decided that she didn't want to go bowling. Soupy tried to ask her what she wanted to do, but she wouldn't say; she just looked out the window of the vehicle and was really snappy with us.

When we got to the bowling alley, there was a large group of Tate-Lyle employees there for some party. We went to get our shoes and such, and the lady at the counter, who was usually very friendly, was a total bitch.

So, we just bowled one game, and came back here, where I will spend the rest of the night talking to people online and wishing people wouldn't be so damned stupid.

Should I continue with my career in technology, or should I find another career?

I got the following messages in virus alerts, just in the last 24 hours.

Subject:
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From:
bustnu @comcast.net
Date:
Sun, 25 Apr 2004 20:40:37 -0500
To:
tim_garrison @midwaynet.net

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+++ Attachment: No Virus found
+++ MessageLabs AntiVirus - www.messagelabs.com

Suspicious content:
File 'id09509.txt.exe' has a forbidden name

(failure tim_garrison@midwaynet.net)
From: nkferrante @att.net
Date: Sun, 25 Apr 2004 20:44:15 -0500
To: tim_garrison @midwaynet.net
<b>
*Suspicious content:*
File 'message.scr' has a forbidden name

From: feedback @nytimes.com
Date: Mon, 26 Apr 2004 13:09:26 -0400
To: tim_garrison @midwaynet.net

here
<b>
*Suspicious content:*
File 'jokes.htm.exe' has a forbidden name
</b>

Good thing I don't use an email client that would open those attachments automatically, even if they did exist. Really though, it would be really nice if I could turn off those alerts like they told me I could. I don't need to know someone forged an email address and tried to send me a virus.

I've decided that since I've offended enough people today, that I'm just gonna not talk to people unless they talk to me, for the next few weeks. Maybe it'll get me out of the whole "pissing people off" thing.

Trust me, I don't intend to offend.

I'm a dick who takes everything for what it appears to be at first sight. You would too if you have been fucked around as much as I have been.

This isn't aimed at any single person. I've been accused of this by nearly everyone I know, so everyone who reads it is getting a dose of it.

Which of the bold faced lies will we use?
'I hope that you're happy, you really deserve it,
this will be the best for us both in the end.'

But your taste still lingers on my lips like I just placed them upon yours
and I starve...
I starve for you.
But this new diet's liquid
and dulling to the senses.
And it's crude, but it will do.

So which of the standard lines will we use?
'I've been meaning to call you. I've just been so busy.
We'll catch up soon.
Let's make it a point to.'

But your taste still lingers on my lips like I just placed them upon yours
and I starve...
I starve for you.
But this new diet's liquid
and dulling to the senses.
And it's crude, but it will do.

but It will do...
I hope it will do...

Powerball is up to $103,000,000 I was only gonna get 1 ticket for it, but when I saw that it was that high, I decided to skip my caffiene for tomorrow and spend the $3 on 3 shots at it.

There should be an easier way to move data from one hard drive to another. I've got about 12 hours in this crap already, and I'm far from done!

F*CK OFF!!

I've had just about enough bullshit for one week, and if I get any more, people are going to start seeing a side of me that few have seen before.