Ok, so maybe I'm bi-polar...

Today, I was actually feeling a lot better. I don't know if was a sense of numbness or what, but I know that the depression that I've been fighting for the past 6 months wasn't really showing. That was until my sister informed me of something...

Sunday is graduation. Yes, I'll be graduating. I've worked really hard to get to this point. I expected that my whole family, the immediate family at least, would be there. I guess my expectations were set too high.

I've been "ranked" yet again. And yet again, the person giving me this rank didn't have the fucking balls to tell me. They sent a messenger.

Yes, I'm refering to my brother in law. He doesn't want to leave town for the weekend because he did last weekend to spend a couple hours with this family and to make use of my scanner. That was the initial reason. After that, I was informed that he doesn't want to have anythng to do with it because Mom is planning something for afterwards.

It really breaks me up to see that he is calling this an unimportant event, and that he'll go to my "real graduation" instead. Pardon me, but FUCK THE HELL OFF. Next time he expects me to show up at his place to help out with a project, I'll just say that I can't, because it isn't important. I am also upset that he is basically restraining my sister, who is damned near my twin, from coming to the ceremony. I really don't give a fuck if he doesn't want to spend time at the after-ceremony event Mom is planning, but this is an important day to me, and I would have really liked to see them there.

Since he doesn't want to go, fine. Don't go. I just hope he doesn't expect anything more out of me, seeing as how I've been rated as unimportant.