she said to me, over the phone she wanted to see other people i thought, "well then, look around, they're everywhere" said that she was confused... i thought, "darling, join the club" 24 years old, mid-life crisis nowadays hits you when you're young i hung up, she called back, i hung up again the process had already started at least it happened quick i swear, i died inside that night my friend, he called i didn't mention a thing the last thing he said was, "be sound" sound... i contemplated an awful thing, i hate to admit i just thought those would be such appropriate last words but i'm still here and small so small.. how could this struggle seem so big? so big... while the palms in the breeze still blow green and the waves in the sea still absolute blue but the horror every single thing i see is a reminder of her never thought i'd curse the day i met her and since she's gone and wouldn't hear who would care? what good would that do? but i'm still here so i imagine in a month...or 12 i'l be somewhere having a drink laughing at a stupid joke or just another stupid thing and i can see myself stopping short drifting out of the present sucked by the undertow and pulled out deep and there i am, standing wet grass and white headstones all in rows and in the distance there's one, off on its own so i stop, kneel my new home... and i picture a sober awakening, a re-entry into this little bar scene sip my drink til the ice hits my lip order another round and that's it for now sorry never been too good at happy endings...

(Pearl Jam - Untitled/I'm Still Here)

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Allright... See that post down below with the IP addresses? Those are spam-bots. This blog system does not have support for banning certain IP addresses/ranges, and it has a few other bugs that you most likely haven't seen. Because of this, I am coding a new blog system. This new blog will have theme support, multi-user support (but that won't be enabled here), and just a really easy to use interface.

I'll post some screenshots of it after while.

"Learn how to stop procrastinating!" - Stupid Google ads... An epidemic on the internet? My Logitech MX510 is übèr lèèt. "Burnout 3 - Takedown" is a very addictive game.

$ban_ips[] = '38.119.107.88';
$ban_ips[] = '68.152.174.70';
$ban_ips[] = '168.143.113.126';

foreach($ban_ips as $ip) {
    if($_SERVER['REMOTE_ADDR'] == $ip) die();
}

Stupid spam bots...

10:00PM - I pulled in at the convenience store on the north side of town to find that it had just closed. This store is one of two, and is the better.

10:15PM - I pulled in at the convenience store on the south side of town. This was one of 2, just like the north side of town, but the other had closed already. The one I was at was getting ready to close.

Here's the issue: On the north side of town, there is a tattoo parlor and a tavern. Both stay open past midnight, and what if someone's designated driver has to put gas in the car because their inebreated friend somehow forgot to fill the car before getting plastered?

On the south side of town, there is another tavern, and a new theater that just opened. Both of these places are also open past midnight. You can see the issue there.

I HATE THIS FREAKING TOWN!!!

So Mom had a math test today. She told me about a problem she had, and that she forgot to F.O.I.L. it. I didn't realize why it would need FOIL'ed until just now...

f(x) = (2 + x)² - 3

Can you see why? :)

I hate clipping my fingernails, let alone my thumbnails. I usually wait until they are fairly long before I cut them, because when I do, they splinter off for days and days.

I clipped my fingernails last weekend, but left my thumbnails alone. The other night, I realized that they were TOO long, and clipped them. Yesterday morning, I noticed that the skin underneath the nail had pulled away from the nail, and that it was quite tender. You'd think that it wouldn't hurt as bad today, but guess what... IT DOES!

So I went to a site to look at the lyrics for a song I had blaring really loud, and all of a sudden I hear this phone ring REALLY LOUD.

1. I was not expecting it, so it scared the crap out of me
2. The concept of adding sounds to advertisements is just retarded
3. The ad itself was retarded
4. "Shoot the annoying cell-phone guy and win $100" is not something that I would do. I would much rather shoot the guy that thought up that banner and not win $100.

I have spent the last 3 days, standing on top of a 7' and 12' stepladder (not at the same time), hanging ceiling fans and lights. I am so sore, I think I have found new muscles in the human body. The front and sides of my neck hurt like someone is squeezing them, right along my sternum, my chest feels like someone hit me really hard, my knees hurt from the rung of the ladder above the rung I was standing on rested on the tops of my kneecaps which pushed them down and away from my knees...

I'm just glad that all the fans and lights are hung. All that's left is stuff that can be done standing on the floor, and a little bit of work in the attic to find out why 2 rooms have no lights.

Well, we are now into fall and winter. Say goodbye to the awesome thunderstorms and such.

They're talking about snow flurries this Friday... I HATE snow.

Never have I been hit by seasonal allergies this bad. This year, my joins all hurt, my ears are messed up, and I feel physically drained.

The suitcoats say, "There is money to be made." They get so damn excited, but I guess it's their way. My road it may be lonely just because it's not paved. It's good for drifting, drifting away.

(Pearl Jam - Drifting)

I think this is actually an old folk song... I'll have to look into it...

Edit: From what I see in the Google results for it, it is a Pearl Jam song all the way.

I’ve spent my life running from the emptiness that haunts me And I’ve spent my whole life trying to fuck the loneliness away And I die inside when I think of all the people that I’ve damaged I’m tired I’m so tired and there’s no one else except myself to blame

(chorus) My life’s been wasted everything is gone My life’s been wasted and I am all alone My life’s been wasted there is no one else My life’s been wasted it’s time I face myself

I’ve spent my life trapped inside a cycle of self-destruction And I’ve spent my whole life trying to numb the pain inside my soul Furious I cry when I realized I fought this war with no one Now I’m tired I’m so fucking tired but I’ll find a way to keep my faith alive

(chorus)

When I reach the end will anything I’ve done mean anything Now when I reach the end will anything I’ve done mean anything Will anything I’ve done mean anything(x2)

My life’s been wasted everything is gone My life’s been wasted now I am all alone My life’s been wasted there is no one else My life’s been wasted

My life’s been wasted everything is gone My life’s been wasted and I am all alone My life’s been wasted there is simply no one left My life’s been wasted now it’s time I face myself

(Stabbing Westward - Wasted)

Since I'm kinda in charge of the Preempted hosting, and I saw that Resolution's site wasn't working properly, I figured I'd check into it. Turns out, somone really hates him and may have found a flaw in either this server or Edge.

68.108.239.115 - - [07/Oct/2004:20:02:27 -0400] "GET /errors/fuckyou.html HTTP/1.1" 302 318 "-" "Mozilla/5.0 (Windows; U; Windows NT 5.1; rv:1.7.3) Gecko/20040913 Firefox/0.10.1" 68.108.239.115 - - [07/Oct/2004:20:02:27 -0400] "GET /errors/fuckyou.html HTTP/1.1" 302 318 "-" "Mozilla/5.0 (Windows; U; Windows NT 5.1; rv:1.7.3) Gecko/20040913 Firefox/0.10.1" 68.108.239.115 - - [07/Oct/2004:20:02:27 -0400] "GET /errors/fuckyou.html HTTP/1.1" 302 318 "-" "Mozilla/5.0 (Windows; U; Windows NT 5.1; rv:1.7.3) Gecko/20040913 Firefox/0.10.1" 68.108.239.115 - - [07/Oct/2004:20:02:27 -0400] "GET /errors/fuckyou.html HTTP/1.1" 302 318 "-" "Mozilla/5.0 (Windows; U; Windows NT 5.1; rv:1.7.3) Gecko/20040913 Firefox/0.10.1" 68.108.239.115 - - [07/Oct/2004:20:02:28 -0400] "GET /errors/fuckyou.html HTTP/1.1" 302 318 "-" "Mozilla/5.0 (Windows; U; Windows NT 5.1; rv:1.7.3) Gecko/20040913 Firefox/0.10.1"

This continues for quite a long span of time, until something happens... some.harmless.users.ip - - [07/Oct/2004:20:47:19 -0400] "GET /country/00.gif HTTP/1.1" 200 875 "http://res.preempted.net/" "Mozilla/5.0 (Windows; U; Windows NT 5.1; rv:1.7.3) Gecko/20040913 Firefox/0.10 StumbleUpon/1.998" 68.108.239.115 - - [07/Oct/2004:20:48:36 -0400] "GET /index.php HTTP/1.1" 500 - "http://res.preempted.net/index.php" "Mozilla/5.0 (Windows; U; Windows NT 5.1; rv:1.7.3) Gecko/20040913 Firefox/0.10.1"

I hope Jason finds out about this fairly soon. I can't afford for my sites to go offline, as well as the sites that I have developed for paying customers.

READ THE COMMENTS PEOPLE... I AM A RETARD