I hate retrospect.
Almost all day, I've been thinking of my past, and the decisions I've made. It hasn't helped that my own mother has been making (subtle) hints about some of them. It's bad enough to know where I've messed up in my life, but to have people pointing them out to me in a crafty way doesn't help me deal with it any.
It's almost as though those people want to audibly point and laugh, but they continue to do it almost silently to provoke me even more.
I could almost make a list of what has been on my mind today, but I don't think that would help me any. I just wish there was somthing that someone, including me, could do.
There are two choices I have right now:
- Repress the memories.
- Keep thinking about them and stay depressed.
I'd like to opt for the first one, but that still doesn't solve anything.